First time I picked up a substance was shortly after I turned 9, I was living in Flint, MI, with my dad and "new" stepmother. It all began with marijuana and liquor ... Then I experienced mushrooms later the same year. I quickly enjoyed using and wanted nothing more in the world.

Around 14, I began my path with crack/cocaine along with pills and Crystal Meth. I began selling to support my habit and quickly found out what it was all about. I overdosed when I was 15 on a bunch of pills that they gave me to come off the cocaine. I was forced into a inpatient rehab. I wish I could say my road to recovery started there, but it didn't.

Soon after I got out, I was back to smoking crack and using everyone for what ever they had. At 16, I decided to take a 'geographical cure' and move down to Alabama. At that time, I began to drink a lot and got right back into snorting cocaine ... and along came the ecstasy with it.

Begin selling large quantities of coke, pain killers and pot to keep the party going. Around the age of 19, I'd met a meth cooker and began what I that was a great talent.. manufacturing meth... I did this for awhile and then I met a girl that I married after 6 months and the drugs and partying kept going. I became a daily drunk and oxicotin user.

Soon enough, my wife left me. I was let go from my job and I lost the house I was buying. I went to jail for numerous public intoxications. I totaled my car and decided to end my life and shoot up some morphine. That failed, so I cried out for help and my mother came from N.Y. to pick me up and put me in a rehab. Since then, I am have beem very involved in Alcoholics Anonymous and cannot believe the life I have so far only after a few months. I am working through the 12-steps with my sponsor. As of today, I can say that I don't feel like dying and haven't felt like dying in awhile.

I didn't get sober to be miserable and I can say that I have alot of clean fun today and enjoy the world and my very existence. If you feel like you need help, all you have to do is ask. There is nothing you have to walk through alone. I found this out by coming to the rooms. Stay safe and stay sober.