Phyllis of New York
Posted: August 4, 2009
Time in recovery: 12 years, 3 months
I am a Black American female born in South Carolina to God fearing parents. My story is quite simple,unique and extraordinary. From the age of 16, I started using tobacco which is the oldest and hardest drug to kick all due to it's being a legal drug.
I remember my father made my sister and I smoke a package of Marlboro(cigarettes) one right behind the other. He said to us "you want to smoke"? Thank God it wasn't a cigar that we had to smoke. From cigarettes I ventured and experimented with marijuana and alcohol - two downers. I didn't like those. I tried dope(heroin) at the age of 17 by way of sniffing. I tried different kinds of pills. It wasn't for me. Low and behold here comes freebase. The love of my life(at least I thought it was).
Secrets have major role in why I got caught up in the drug scene. I could go on and on however, my story takes me where I got my first shot at a real recovery. It was when I had my ninth child (boy) that I realized that I needed to recover so that I could have a chance to live life on life's terms without the use of have my ego being altered by some outside sources (drugs).
Reality House was the place for me to be when it all happened. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, so I made a decision "to let go and let God" do his job on helping me to recover. My decision was a good one in my life.
I will always need people in my life good,bad and indifferent to help me stay on the right path. I do not discriminate due to the fact that there before the grace of god goes I. I tell everyone that I meet since I've been in recovery that you will always have to humble yourself and be patient. Not saying that that is easy. It is something that I have to work on on a daily basis. God grant me the serenty to except the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference.