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May 2009 Posts
Maxine of New York
Posted: May 29, 2009       Individual

I entered a self-help program blaming my mother for my addictions to alcohol, others drugs,over-spending/sex, abusive personality complex and anything else I could think of until one day it hit me... I am no longer a victim and I am responsible for my actions. That was the day my life changed and continue to get better. Although, I struggle daily, it's nothing like the past and as long-as I choose not to use my distructive bag-of-tools, I'm a winner.   read more »

Jacqueline of New York
Posted: May 29, 2009       Friend/Family

I survived and recovered from tobacco, an insidious habit, as well as alcohol abuse and overeating some 25-30 years ago. I returned to school after almost losing my life in the late 1970's through early 80's, I successfully became a licensed practical nurse graduating in 1990 and currently hold a CASAC-T until 2011.   read more »

John of Kansas
Posted: May 29, 2009       Individual

I was sitting on a corner on a Sunday morning after a 5 day binge of crack cocaine. I called my wife and asked her to come pick me up. (We were living in her brother's basement with our four children.) She said, "no more, you're not going to do this to us again." Her brother said that I was not welcome back. I prayed a prayer that morning, "God, show me a different way to live or kill me now." I started walking and went into a restaurant to get a $.99 biscuit. the clerk told me that they we...   read more »

Reginald of New York
Posted: May 21, 2009       Individual

I was in my first year as a High School Principal. My wife said she wanted a divorce so I began to drink. Within two weeks, it was out of control and the school district staff knew of problem. I went to rehab and came out the third week of the new school year. I had to face my staff, but three years later, I was named High School Principal of the Year.   read more »

of New York
Posted: May 21, 2009       Individual

At the age of 23, I became homeless living on a train. While on the train, I passed a treatment program and decided to stop in and get some help. I was sent to an upstate facility to begin working on myself and the demons that have haunted me a majority of my life. While in treatment, I was forced to look at my addiction and the negative inpact it had on my life, as well as others. I came to grips with the fact that I was heading down the path towards death. I completed my treatment in March ...   read more »

Sarah of Maine
Posted: May 21, 2009       Individual

I have been in recovery for 4 years now and it has been the best 4 years of my life. My recovery started when I became a type 1 diabetic. I just got fed up with not taking care of myself and I had more to worry about now. So that's when I decided to better my life. I started the methadone treatment March 2005. Since then, I have gone back to College and I now have an Associates Degree in Paralegal Studies. I just graduated, so I'm still in the process of finding a job. I also have my own apa...   read more »

Colm of New York
Posted: May 18, 2009       Individual

I used to think that I would always have a roof over my head, as it turns out I was wrong. I spent the better part of 2 years homeless living on the A train in New York City. Throughout my time in treatment, it took a long period of time for me to even trust those who were there to help me. About 3 months in, I found that it would be easier to trust then to live the way I had been living. I started talking to my peers and my counselor about my insecurities on a daily basis. Recovery is the s...   read more »

James of New York
Posted: May 18, 2009       Individual

My story is a typical alcoholic, drug addict story - beggining at age 12 sniffing glue,drinking quarts of beer and smoking cigarettes. The progression led to more alcohol and harder drugs and 22 more years of abusing all things including family, friends and loved ones. I ended up on a methadone treatment program in the early '70s which allowed me to get off heroin. I was tapered off methadone in '76 and did not find total abstinence until '86 after hitting bottom when I realized my 3 year ol...   read more »

Denise of New York
Posted: May 18, 2009       Individual

I am an African-American female who used drugs and alcohol for over 25 years. In my addiction, my main focus was to use and not feel any emotions. However, at the time I did not know that's what i was running from. Finally, at the age of 40, I decided that enough was enough and one of the motivating factors was my 18 year old son was murdered. I reached out to a friend and signed myself into a detox. There after, I attended 12 step meeting everyday and followed the old-timers suggestions. It is ...   read more »

Linda of New York
Posted: May 18, 2009       Individual

Living in the streets, I was raped, almost lost my life by multiple overdoses, and more. I overcame all of this by getting help from other recovering addicts with my same issues, never losing my faith in myself and my lord. They say once an addict always an addict. Well that's not true. It's just an other stigma. We are all proof - all of us in recovery today. I had lost my dignity, my family, my precious granddaughter and grandsons. I also lost my home. Today I am alive and wish to continue...   read more »

Mera of New York
Posted: May 17, 2009       Individual

My turning point was while I was in recovery. I was put on probation for fighting while intoxicated in less then a years time, I received an aggravated DWI and even then I was reluctant to admit I had a problem. I went to an intensive treatment program and for the first time (My hubby told my couselor, "I knew she had a problem.")I asked why he didn't say, he said he didn't know how. I come from a long line of abuse - whether physical, mental, sexual or chemical. Growing up in this type of e...   read more »

Myra of New York
Posted: May 15, 2009       Individual

Married and a mother of four, I was active and well thought of in my small home town. I functioned at a very high level and everyone thought that I had it superbly together. As the secrets and pain of my "real" life got heavier, I retreated further and further into my escape-gambling. When every stock, bond, 401k and all savings were gone, I was deep in the throes of gambling. I started to take New York State Lottery tickets from my employer. Eventually, I was caught and arrested and facing...   read more »

Brenda of New York
Posted: May 15, 2009       Individual

My journey into this recovery process began in 1988. It took the death of my father to get me started, I went to Harlem Hospital Detox, soon after completing the detox, I volunteer to go into residential treatment 24 month program named Damon House. At first, I believed it could work for me since my cousin had my two kids, I needed somewhere to find myself. I did. I am still recovering as a counselor in the substance abuse field by giving back hope. I am committed to those who can't find their ...   read more »

John of New York
Posted: May 15, 2009       Individual

I was an only child of immigrant parents and I never felt that I fit in with my peers. I first got drunk when I was 12, and the experience was so euphoric that I soon became a periodic heavy drinker and drug abuser. Established in a career, I remained a heavy drinker through my thirties, until I got a dream job and became a daily drinker at 38. For five long years thereafter I got drunk every single day. But one day, when I was 43, I awoke shaking like a leaf, laughing and crying and unable ...   read more »

Stu of New York
Posted: May 11, 2009       Individual

At the age of 45, I had accepted that I would die with a needle in my arm or in jail. I had been an addict almost 30 years. Due to a bad abcess on my arm, I had to enter Mt. Sinai Hospital where I was put on methadone. After 10 days, I was discharged and referred to their opiate outpatient treatment and put on methadone maintenance. When I was stablized with an opiate blocking dose, the clinic started a Mercy College program which involved the teachers holding classes in the clinic. I th...   read more »

James of New York
Posted: May 8, 2009       Individual

My story begins growing up in a home severely affected by alcohol use. My father was a functioning alcoholic who prided himself on never missing a day of work. He worked as a bowling alley mechanic, which also meant he had daily access to his drink. I grew up understanding that it was normal to drink often and to excess. I don't remember my first drink, but I do remember planning and then getting very drunk to celebrate my thirteenth birthday. Shortly after that I "discovered" other drugs an...   read more »

Monica of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

I'm a Heroin Addict from the 60's, who went in and out of jails and programs beginning with Rockerfeller. I spent the better part of 40 years on one drug or the other. When I reached program number five, I was tired. I looked up and I was over 50, with nothing to show for my years. I entered the program and I haven't looked back. I returned to school and I am now a Substance Abuse Counselor. I am also an online student studying for my Bachelors in Psychology. I live in my first apartment, an...   read more »

Suzanne of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

I started drinking at age 12 and using drugs at 13. By the time I was 19 or 20, my parents, no longer able to cope with my out of control addicton and alcoholism, threw me out of their house. With a one way ticket and an attitude I wound up in Los Angeles, where I proceeded to bottom out. There weren't enough drugs or alcohol that could numb the pain I felt. A high school friend had gotten sober and asked me to lunch to tell me how she found God and I could too, because she thought I was an ...   read more »

Peggy of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

Most of my family drank to excess and thought nothing of it. I had a terrible relationship with my mom, and when I was 17, she died. From that point on, I began to destroy myself, drinking daily and engaging in many self-destructive behaviors. My college plans went down the drain, and I just about graduated High School. I entered a rehab at age 25. I did what they recommended and went to aftercare and Alcoholics Anonymous, and followed direction as best I could. I participated in AA just abo...   read more »

Heather of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

I have always been a very outgoing, impulsive and adventurous person, but for some reason always felt that I was missing something. At 12 years old, I smoked marijuana for the first time. I remember it like it was yesterday, I finally had found the missing piece of the puzzle. I had no idea that this would be the beginning of more than a decade of drug abuse and complete insanity. Shortly after being familiarized with marijuana I decided I needed something more thrilling. Within the next 4 y...   read more »

Fredrick of New Jersey
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

I took my first drink at the age of 5. From then until I got Sober at the age of 19, I spent every day of those 14 years trying to run from myself and God. Since I've been sober, I've found a new and wonderful life which has given me the opportunity to look deeply within the darkness of my personal hell, and show others how to get out of theirs. Unlike some people I know within the rooms of Recovery, I have developed an appreciation for the Gift of my Addiction, because I now have an abilit...   read more »

Barbara of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

I was 48 yrs. old and going downhill. My drinking had escalated to the point where I was continually under the influence. Subsequently, I became more and more depressed and suicidal. At this point, one of my drinking buddies and my daughter hit bottom and joined Alcoholics Anonymous. This gave me a jolt and I began looking at my own drinking; in an attempt to justify it. It took another year, but finally at 6 a.m. one Sunday morning, drunk and suicidal, my daughter asked if I had had enough...   read more »

Rosie of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

My turning point was when I realized my disease had me so numb to society that on 9/11 I was not even effected emotionally. My only concern was where and how I was going to get the next one. I had been so disassociated from reality by my insanity. I faced many challenges, my family had given up on me after many years and attempts at putting my life together and me continuing to use and abuse. I decided that no matter what I had to do this for me and if it was meant to be I would have my fami...   read more »

ROBERT of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

I am a cancer survivor, currently undergoing chemo/radiation therapy. I am in extreme pain on a daily basis. My path to recovery took me through 2 residential treatment programs and 1 outpatient program. I have attended 12-step self-help meetings. At one point in my life, I was eating garbage and smoking cigarette filters that I found on the ground. I believe in a higher power, who has lead me to be of service to other addicts. I am a CASAC counselor, who has been able to empower others to s...   read more »

sal of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

I EVEN HAVE MY FAMILY BACK... My story is typical of most that come to the rooms of Gamblers Anonymous. I entered the program in 1976 in Buffalo, NY and got involved in the program and the growth of meetings in the area. I attended the formation meeting of the Inter-group that was held in Rome, NY in 1977. I went almost 4 ½ years without placing a bet when I woke up one day in “Philly” during an alcoholic blackout at a poker table. I don’t remember if I had gambled or not, but the thought...   read more »

Kay of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

Drugging all my young life , heroin was my drug of choice. I began this course at age of 11. Pot and I did not agree, alcohol not for me, but heroin was the answer. I became addicted at age of 13 and continued IVDU until I eventually was arrested for the fifth time and a new program called Task entered into my life and introduced me to a place called Samaritan Village. At 24 and approaching 25, I wanted to be a better person. I had a peer group of about 10 - all of which started out the firs...   read more »

Bob of New York
Posted: May 7, 2009       Individual

My life began when I came to Gamblers Anonymous at 33 years old. After 22 years of gambling, stealing, lying, fighting and much more, I had crossed into being a compulsive gambler at 11 years old. Until I came to Gamblers Anonymous, I thought that the things that I was doing and the way that I was living was okay. That is, until the last year of my gambling, when everything fell apart for me. I lost a huge amount of money, was cheating on my wife and got caught, and attempted suicide. Th...   read more »


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