I started drinking before I was born. My mom drank while pregnant with me and after I was born gave me wine to go to sleep. She also did this to stop me from crying. So, I acquired the taste at an early age. I got suspended in the sixth grade for smoking THC and I also drank all throughout junior high school and high school. I was in a nine year relationship which was verbally abusive. I gained an enormous amount of weight, which I was constantly told about it so I went on the worst diet in ...   read more »

hello my name is richard i just wanted to share my story last mounth i lost my mom and when that happen it was just like looseing my best friend she was always there for me when i need here words can explaine howe pround she is for me qustieing drinking it all stared when i was 14 years old when i haded my first drink and when i met my wife and we haded two kikds ate the time we lost our kids for my drinking promble and i went to a rehab center and they helped me and showed me moives on howe muc...   read more »

When I was growing up, I had such low self-worth. I felt as though I didn't belong on this earth. A self-image I could easily diminish, A statement I feel I can't make any clearer, I hated myself and who I saw looking back in the mirror. I wasn't born that way, but with the absence of guidance and instruction, I conditioned myself to sabotage and self-destruction. Sooner rather then later, the world I'd created became more and more contaminated, as my actions became more outlandish...   read more »

WHO I AM. When i think about who I am as of this moment,I still see a kid with a wounded child mentality who’s to scared to face reality. A solider who’s always on the defensive instead of being on the offensive. Always looking to unload on the weak so I can keep my superiority and my winning streak. The feelings are uncontrollable, how much I don’t like to be open and vulnerable. I'll push you away before I let you in, but I’ll bring you down with me and take you to my next sin. My...   read more »

This is an up-date from when I wrote my story April 13, 2010. My journey has really exploded with wonder. In November 2010, I was elected President of the Alumni for the C.K.Post Rehab on Long Island. How wonderful is tha;I get to be a part of a great government that's whole concept is "Giving Back" freely what was given to us. So far we've had a pizza party with the rehab patients, we had a great Memorial Day barbaque with the patients,where we had fellowshiped with them, played outdoor games, ...   read more »

At the age of eight years old, while living in Germany, I fell from a moving trian. I suffered several skull fractures, Two broken arms and a broken right leg. While in the hospital, my step-father took advantage and began sexually molesting me. It continued even after my dischrge from the hospital. When I returned to New York, I was agian molested by three cousins. Then at the age of seventeen I was raped twice while in a center for youth. After I was dischrged I began using drugs which provide...   read more »

I started drinking and smoking pot at an early age, about 12 years old. I continued to drink through high school, college, etc. I quit drinking several times over the years, but always just switched addictions. My wife stuck with me through the years and ended up becoming a drug & alcohol counselor... Yeah, for real. My disease continued to progress until I discovered meth at age 38. The next 6 years were ugly. At age 42 my wife found out what I was using, and had finally had enough. Coinc...   read more »

Beginning to End I have come a long way compared to where I was. I was 15 years old when I started with light drugs like weed. That went on for years until I was 18 years of age. Then I moved on to sniffing coke and drinking hard alcohol. I am now 32 years of age, pregnant with my fourth child, and clean.   read more »